Litany to the Unknown

I love you though it pains me.
I love you though I stare wide-eyed into the nothingness, because I have no other company but yearning.
I love you though I find emptiness at the edge of reason.
I love you though the well in my heart gets dug deeper and deeper and now as I look down I see only darkness.
I love you although the core of my being screams against impending oblivion.

I love you and I don't know why.
Yet I do and it's a fact;
a state of life;
an essential requisite of existence;
a cause for hope;
a moment of contented forgetfulness.

Give me strength,
I know not what love is.
Let me not bow down as the storm of the unknown 
passes through me and over me. 
I know not what love is,
but I know I love you.

Finally Can I Sleep

Finally can I slumber,

Close these dust-leaden eyes

That broke through the day

Day by day without break.

Finally can I lie supine,

Rest aside these weathered arms

That carry the loads of my existence

Existing and existing, these loads.

Finally can I exhale,

Give my lungs some space

From breathing this world with me

For again and again I am breathless.

Finally can I escape,

Brush my feet under the thick mattress

And cease from running from time

Time and time again without cease.

Finally is there peace,

My ears can be deaf from this earthly whining,

my tongue without need for food,

from feeding this need for peace.

Slumber.

Lie Down

Exhale..

Escape..

Peace…..

Finally can I stop

Yearning for sleep.

An eternal refuge

From this mortal bed.

Oblivion

Memories, like glass turning back into sand,

slipping through my fingers, trying so hastily to escape

And the grains that linger on my palm,

though there would give no reflection

nothing but sand, trickling down this hourglass

A Part of Me

You keep on falling

In this hole

I never meant to dig.

Floundering,

then rising…

Plummeting,

then soaring…

Scratching the edgeless walls,

of this guttural darkness,

as black as perspiring wells

of summer twilights.

You keep on falling.

In this hole

I never meant to dig.

Unceasingly becoming

a part of me.